(Originally Written 11/10/18)
There was this guy that I had a fling with. He never wanted to take me anywhere because he was embarrassed by me and I knew that. I was only good for one thing. In his attempt to not look like an ass he would tell me that he's just not ready for a relationship and we just weren't compatible. Okay yeah. It wouldn't have anything to do with my weight right? Two years later when I lost all my weight I contacted him and asked him if he remembered me. His response was no. He would definitely remember me. So I said, "let me send you a picture of when you knew me. "I sent him one of my fat pictures and he couldn't believe that it was me.
That night he begged and begged me to go out with him. So let me get this straight, we are compatible now because I'm 100lbs thinner and hot? Gotcha. I had that happen a couple more times. It makes me sad that people only look on the outside. If they don't like what they see and it's not what society expects then you are shunned. I told you all this because I've been on both sides and I wanted to see if there were any good people left. You wouldn't believe all the guys that treat me differently now. It's mind-boggling they wouldn't give me the time of day or look my way with when I was a size 16 and now they're blowing up at every angle. How was I so different before.. maybe you just had to get to know me. So opening up my viewing thing on Facebook to people that didn't know who didn't know my past didn't know that I was heavy. They just looked at me here and now and what I look like not on my inside but my outside. 1500 friend requests in a month. It shows that people are still so superficial. I will tell you one thing though I wouldn't take back any of it. It's made me who I am today and today I'm happy just being Aprel. I'm happy being the crazy butter-knife girl who was once 250 lbs. I'm no different than I was back then. I can't help but wonder if I still would have got the same attention. If all those people in the past month would they be calling me at 3am if they knew me all those years ago? I'm sure not. God doesn't like ugly and this world is still so ugly so please think before you make fun of somebody because society says their different. They are just the same as you and I. You have no idea how your negatives comments can affect a person that already hates themselves. If I've kept your attention all this time thanks for reading and God bless.
That night he begged and begged me to go out with him. So let me get this straight, we are compatible now because I'm 100lbs thinner and hot? Gotcha. I had that happen a couple more times. It makes me sad that people only look on the outside. If they don't like what they see and it's not what society expects then you are shunned. I told you all this because I've been on both sides and I wanted to see if there were any good people left. You wouldn't believe all the guys that treat me differently now. It's mind-boggling they wouldn't give me the time of day or look my way with when I was a size 16 and now they're blowing up at every angle. How was I so different before.. maybe you just had to get to know me. So opening up my viewing thing on Facebook to people that didn't know who didn't know my past didn't know that I was heavy. They just looked at me here and now and what I look like not on my inside but my outside. 1500 friend requests in a month. It shows that people are still so superficial. I will tell you one thing though I wouldn't take back any of it. It's made me who I am today and today I'm happy just being Aprel. I'm happy being the crazy butter-knife girl who was once 250 lbs. I'm no different than I was back then. I can't help but wonder if I still would have got the same attention. If all those people in the past month would they be calling me at 3am if they knew me all those years ago? I'm sure not. God doesn't like ugly and this world is still so ugly so please think before you make fun of somebody because society says their different. They are just the same as you and I. You have no idea how your negatives comments can affect a person that already hates themselves. If I've kept your attention all this time thanks for reading and God bless.