It's almost 1am and I can't think of anything else but writing. Even though my body is screaming for sleep. They say that GOD works in mysterious ways and I assure you, folks, I've seen it and felt it myself. Since it's after midnight it's officially my baby boys birthday. My angel Luca will be 8 at 6:30 this morning. I've been so depressed tonight knowing that I'm gonna miss another one of the boys special days. As much as I've found happiness in myself these things just chew me up, spit me out and step on me over and over. It's just so not fair. This whole situation...just not fair. I keep my faith that when a certain person meets his judgment day that he will feel the pain that I've felt the last three years. Like a thousand knives stabbing you all over your body....and total loss. I can honestly say that GOD is the only way I've been able to cope with that situation.
Anyway, so here I am drowning in my self-pity and a message comes across my phone. It was from a friend back home. She commended me on my blog and told me not to give up. To not listen or care about anyone's opinions. The way she said it brought tears to my eyes. I thanked her over and over again and thanked the man upstairs as well. He swayed her hand to reach out to me because he knew that that was exactly what I needed. To keep faith in me. And I refuse to let to go of that. Then a short time later as I was playing a game on my phone a man from the other side of the US whom I'd only spoken to on there began a conversation with me and his words helped me as well. What are the odds? GOD brought them both to me tonight to help me cope with what was eating me inside and they didn't even know. I'm truly blessed and my GOD is amazing. He knew I needed reassurance and there they were. Thanks again to the two of them. Hopefully, they will read this and smile Goodnight everyone
Stay smiling❤❤
Anyway, so here I am drowning in my self-pity and a message comes across my phone. It was from a friend back home. She commended me on my blog and told me not to give up. To not listen or care about anyone's opinions. The way she said it brought tears to my eyes. I thanked her over and over again and thanked the man upstairs as well. He swayed her hand to reach out to me because he knew that that was exactly what I needed. To keep faith in me. And I refuse to let to go of that. Then a short time later as I was playing a game on my phone a man from the other side of the US whom I'd only spoken to on there began a conversation with me and his words helped me as well. What are the odds? GOD brought them both to me tonight to help me cope with what was eating me inside and they didn't even know. I'm truly blessed and my GOD is amazing. He knew I needed reassurance and there they were. Thanks again to the two of them. Hopefully, they will read this and smile Goodnight everyone
Stay smiling❤❤