Merry Christmas Eve everyone!!! I can say that despite the fact that my kids aren't with me this Christmas that I am still very blessed. This morning I woke up in positive spirits. That's in my eyes the most important thing. Bryant and I are trying to work things out. And with current issues, I realize that he really is all I have. I've also been blessed to find new friends that I can honestly say are genuine. With no motives. With my depression, I need to surround myself with positive people, which they are. And Bryant definitely needs that as well. I had planned on sleeping away my holidays and waking up in 2019 but now my plans have changed. Our new friends who are old enough to be our parents invited us to spend Christmas with them. And as much as I wanted to stay in my bubble I took a chance and left it for the second time since October 17th. It has turned out to be a great decision. So this morning as I woke up in a strange bed with Ming and Bryant beside me I knew that 2019 was going to be a great, positive year! And I am positive that next Christmas my kids will be with me too. But if not I will definitely be closer. 💜🙏💜🙏💜