I don't know how I got here. I don't know where in life I took the wrong turn and scurried away from the path I was supposed to choose. The place where I really belong. Maybe this is a dream and I've been sleeping all this time. When I finally wake up I'll be where I belong and shake my head in disbelief that I could possibly dream my life could be like this. Or maybe this isn't my first life. Maybe this is my punishment for something I did in a life before this. Maybe I was selfish and heartless in my past life and took for granted all the wonderful things I had. So as punishment I was sent to repeat my life with a kind soul that would be destined to be treated the way I had treated everyone before, beaten, battered and abused.
Now don't get it twisted I'm far from perfect. Every day I commit sin and then have to ask our father for forgiveness. But I think that my heart is good and my morals as well. Only GOD truly knows that for sure though. The last couple weeks have been tough I gotta admit. Aside from the cheating, I knew that there were others so I decided to go inspector gadget on his ass. I hacked every account he has and put a call detail on his phone. Now every time he has a phone call I know about it. I didn't figure I was wrong to do it seeing that I pay the phone bill. But low and behold since the cheating there has been others. Only one attempt and denial of sex though as far as I know. I've confronted him about all of them and of course lies. I never know if any truth comes out of his mouth. I just don't get how you can look someone in the eyes that you claim to love and lie without so much as a flinch. That is the lowest kind of person. To do that to someone who literally supports and takes care of you is sickening. Upon thinking about all of this I came to a decision. I continue playing gadget. And continue to reach out to all these women and warn them of his evil ways. So that they don't become a victim like me. Show them proof so that they know I'm not some crazy ex, just a someone trying to prevent it from happening again. Because nobody deserves a person that treats them the way he has treated me. I'm hoping that I'll do enough good to lead myself back to the path I was meant to be on. Life is too short not to be happy and not to feel love. FYI there will be repercussions by doing this I know so when the lies start flowing from his mouth as they always do I would hope that it's taken with a grain of salt. So my mission begins..
Now don't get it twisted I'm far from perfect. Every day I commit sin and then have to ask our father for forgiveness. But I think that my heart is good and my morals as well. Only GOD truly knows that for sure though. The last couple weeks have been tough I gotta admit. Aside from the cheating, I knew that there were others so I decided to go inspector gadget on his ass. I hacked every account he has and put a call detail on his phone. Now every time he has a phone call I know about it. I didn't figure I was wrong to do it seeing that I pay the phone bill. But low and behold since the cheating there has been others. Only one attempt and denial of sex though as far as I know. I've confronted him about all of them and of course lies. I never know if any truth comes out of his mouth. I just don't get how you can look someone in the eyes that you claim to love and lie without so much as a flinch. That is the lowest kind of person. To do that to someone who literally supports and takes care of you is sickening. Upon thinking about all of this I came to a decision. I continue playing gadget. And continue to reach out to all these women and warn them of his evil ways. So that they don't become a victim like me. Show them proof so that they know I'm not some crazy ex, just a someone trying to prevent it from happening again. Because nobody deserves a person that treats them the way he has treated me. I'm hoping that I'll do enough good to lead myself back to the path I was meant to be on. Life is too short not to be happy and not to feel love. FYI there will be repercussions by doing this I know so when the lies start flowing from his mouth as they always do I would hope that it's taken with a grain of salt. So my mission begins..