Throughout my life one thing has always stayed consistent, that being my faith. And after crossing over during my near-death experience it grew even stronger. I've prayed for him to walk beside me and help me to understand my mental illness and why I have it, prayed for strength during the years of physical and emotional abuse and prayed to heal the sick. Just about have prayed for everything. I know for certain that he will never fail me and to this day I have been right. And always given thanks for all that I have. Despite all that, I'm currently going through I have an l okay life. There are definitely three missing links to make me complete but I know that it won't be this way forever.
I believe that we create our stories, whether the rough draft was written that way or something totally different. Our physical life is so short compared to our actual existence. And when we meet that day that we separate from our vessel and leave the physical plane everything that mattered here won't matter anymore. As we make our way through the planes every emotion that we felt will be as if they never existed. Going through reincarnation as many times as needed until we are of a pure spirit to sit beside our lord in heaven. Our own subconscious energy consisting of only vibration and frequency. In essence, if you will. That's how I believe it works anyway. We all have our own beliefs. I've been thinking a lot about all these things for the last few days. Trying to remind myself of what lies ahead someday. Happy thoughts to stop all the tears. I refuse to ask God for help on this one because I created all of this by myself. After all is said and done I may only ask him to help me remember what I've learned if ever a similar situation comes my way so that I can stop it before it ever has time to start. I'm not quite sure why I felt the need to write all of this down tonight since it's not something I usually speak of but I did. Maybe I was willed to do so so that I could get my thoughts out to remind my heart and my mind. To help me understand that all of this is so minuscule compared to what comes later. Maybe after reading this you'll think I've completely lost my mind. But hey, we all need to believe in something.
I believe that we create our stories, whether the rough draft was written that way or something totally different. Our physical life is so short compared to our actual existence. And when we meet that day that we separate from our vessel and leave the physical plane everything that mattered here won't matter anymore. As we make our way through the planes every emotion that we felt will be as if they never existed. Going through reincarnation as many times as needed until we are of a pure spirit to sit beside our lord in heaven. Our own subconscious energy consisting of only vibration and frequency. In essence, if you will. That's how I believe it works anyway. We all have our own beliefs. I've been thinking a lot about all these things for the last few days. Trying to remind myself of what lies ahead someday. Happy thoughts to stop all the tears. I refuse to ask God for help on this one because I created all of this by myself. After all is said and done I may only ask him to help me remember what I've learned if ever a similar situation comes my way so that I can stop it before it ever has time to start. I'm not quite sure why I felt the need to write all of this down tonight since it's not something I usually speak of but I did. Maybe I was willed to do so so that I could get my thoughts out to remind my heart and my mind. To help me understand that all of this is so minuscule compared to what comes later. Maybe after reading this you'll think I've completely lost my mind. But hey, we all need to believe in something.