Sunday, March 17, 2019

ROLLERCOASTER

   What a week...What a past ten days I should say. I can honestly say that it has been one of the most emotional ones in a while. Of course, it goes without saying that my relationship was definitely a passenger on my emotional rollercoaster, but it didn't take the first seat. Actually, it didn't even really take the second or third seat. The first, second and third seats belonged to Justin, Tony, and Luca. Last night I went back on my word and sent Justin a little message on Instagram. My heart was just so heavy since speaking to him and I couldn't help myself. Monday I go to the psychiatrist/psychologist for the first time in three years.
     I'm proud of myself for making it this long and without any meds. But, it's time. Also because I changed my insurance on Thursday I saw my new primary care doctor. And it wasn't any surprise to me that I just fucking broke. I thought for sure he would think I was absolutely bat shit crazy when I kept breaking down and crying but he didn't. Poor guy, he had no idea that I hadn't even chipped the surface of "Aprel." He told me that we all have a past and even he wasn't perfect. I gotta say in my thirty-seven years of seeing doctors he by far made me feel the most normal and without any judgment. If any of you are looking for a primary care doctor in or around Hernando or Pasco County Florida trust me make an appointment with Dr. Brian Kroll, MD. He's located in Spring Hill, FL. Anyway, to get back to it, I was a bawl bag coming out of there. I honestly can't wait to go to the shrink on Monday. I can't wait to just be able to pour my soul out of everything that's been bothering me to be able to let it all out without being interrupted or judged. I'm also hoping to and some type of medication regimen so I can start being happy again. So we'll see tomorrow what happens, fingers crossed.

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