Lord help me, I need a change. My days consist of this...I wake up and of course, I thank god for another morning he's blessed me with. I hop my happy ass outta bed and tend to my baby girl, my Yorkie Ming. Thank god for Ming, my savior. Anyway, throughout the day I puttsy around (as my pappy Plutch used to say, God rest his soul) cleaning up the house, posting cars online and making appointments. I even have time to play my online games at some point. And in between all of that, I do my two-hour routine to get ready for the day. Yep, it takes me to hours to get ready every day from start to finish. And that's not counting a shower. What can I say, its hard work being beautiful. Usually, by the time all of that is done its always around the same time. Instantly there's a feeling that comes over me because I know what's to come. His arrival home from work. Granted it hardly ever starts out bad by the end of the night I'm done with the day. At some point, there is always a fight and I revert back to my bubble. I've really been trying to go out and spend time with him but within ten minutes we are fighting again and I'm gathering my belongings to run back to my room.
And lately its always that way. Now don't get it twisted he's trying somewhat but it's not the way I need him to try. He's finally making good money and will buy me whatever I ask. Yes, I do appreciate it but I need the things that money can't buy more. He thinks that its still okay to talk to other women when we argue which Ill never understand and he thinks it's okay to continue to lie, as long as he's buying me things. It truly is correct when they say it is extremely difficult to be in a relationship with a narcissist because it really is. They lack compassion and demand praise. Complimenting someone is like nails on a chalkboard to them because the focus isn't on them. I just don't know what to do anymore I'm at my witts end...
And lately its always that way. Now don't get it twisted he's trying somewhat but it's not the way I need him to try. He's finally making good money and will buy me whatever I ask. Yes, I do appreciate it but I need the things that money can't buy more. He thinks that its still okay to talk to other women when we argue which Ill never understand and he thinks it's okay to continue to lie, as long as he's buying me things. It truly is correct when they say it is extremely difficult to be in a relationship with a narcissist because it really is. They lack compassion and demand praise. Complimenting someone is like nails on a chalkboard to them because the focus isn't on them. I just don't know what to do anymore I'm at my witts end...