Wow, I just realized how long its been since I actually wrote an entry. I have been swamped helping out with car sales and putting the finishing touches on my book. I've even sent it out to seven agents. I have to tell you that I'm worried. Rejection is a feeling that I know all too well and for me its gonna hurt. It took me a year to the month to complete it and honestly, I don't think I've ever been so passionate about something. Like I really love to write. Even though the story was mine it still takes a lot to have an imagination, while your dying inside. But for me, I shut off that part of my brain and just wrote, letting my thoughts and feelings flow through my fingers and onto the screen.Besides the birth of my kids I have never been more proud. I hope that even though my story is blunt and brutally honest they are still proud of me. All my life I've been such a disappointment not just to them but to everyone. I hope that this blog and now my book will help change their minds. Show them that I'm doing the best I can and they all should be proud of that, I know I am.