BOMBED

      So they say you can't win them all and boy they aren't lying. Tonight I was fortunate to have my first modeling audition and quite honestly, I bombed it. Everything that could possibly go wrong did just that. Right down to my computer dying right in the middle. 

     Now granted, I didn't expect it to go perfectly for a first, but damn. Karma sometimes always seems to rear its ugly head when its timing couldn't be worse. It's my constant reminder that I'm destined to be unhappy. I'm teased by being given a little bit of happiness then wham karma laughs at me, wondering how I could be such a fool by thinking I could actually be happy. 

    I keep wondering when my punishment will be over but it doesn't seem like I'm off the hook anytime soon. Every day is a different disappointment and quite frankly it's getting old. All I wanted to do was make my boys proud of me and know that all of this wasn't for nothing. Could someone do me a favor and ask God to cut me a break. Because I'm really tired.