How far will you let a person go when they're taking advantage of you? How can they not see that what they are doing is wrong? I keep asking myself that very same question. So let me rewind back twelve days so it all makes sense.
The night before his disappearing act he told me that one of his homeboys was coming over to visit. He said this as he was shutting the bedroom blind so I couldn't see out to the doorway. I knew then something was up. After being gone for what seemed like forever I called down to the Florida room when I heard the bass bumping at one am. He answered and in the background, I heard a female's voice and I flipped. Dykes he said, two dykes came to visit and he thought nothing of it. First, he lied about it being a male coming over only to find out it was not one but two females.
After bitching all night that they were there, they finally left at eleven that morning. We argued the rest of the day because I was so pissed off. Later that night he came into the bedroom dressed to impress and smelling like a million bucks. After eating, sleeping, and breathing this man for seven years I knew he was up to something.
After changing his outfit three times I definitely knew it. So when he said he was going for a walk a short time later I knew the wiser. He was leaving. Ten minutes later I called him and wouldn't cha know no answer. I called again a few more times until finally, he shut his phone off all together. That was it for me. I saw red as I was hurling his things onto the back porch telling myself over and over again that I was done. Done with the bullshit, done with the lying, and definitely done with the cheating.
That night I stayed up waiting for him to come home and couldnt believe it when darkness came again and he still wasnt back. I was angry at him for leaving but even more hurt that he was doing this to me again. I warned him last time that there would be no next time, and here I am reliving it all over again. I blamed myself for letting it happen again. I guess once a fool always a fool. To be continued...