I have no excuse for my hiatus. All I can do is apologize. I guess when my depression hits full swing I isolate myself from the world. Which is exactly what I’ve been doing. I’m not going to sugarcoat the fact that my life has been hell lately, to put it bluntly. I’m trying to figure out how to find some normalcy in this world, but I just can’t seem to. Right now I guess I’m kinda just existing day in and day out, with no real purpose. I’m tired, mentally tired, and worn out beyond belief. The fight I once had is gone, only a distant memory. And the friends I thought were friends, have shown their true stripes. And it saddens me. I honestly don’t know what to do with myself, I really don’t. I wish I had my boys…at least then my life would have purpose.