Sitting here alone gives me a lot of time to think about this relationship that ended before it should have. Why I loved him so much and how I've never felt like that towards anybody before. In the beginning, I was obsessed. We would make love every day numerous times and I still couldn't get enough. There was even one day I think we hit thirteen times. I would say that would be about a record for anybody. And when I went out into public all I saw was him. Men were just people to me and nothing more. But then something changed. I started resenting him. I couldn't understand how he could continuously say he loved me and hurt me again. I would catch him talking to other women and he would tell me he was sorry and said he'd never do it again. Then I'd catch him a few months later. What person could look you straight in the eyes and lie and love you? How can a person love you and knowingly hurt you over and over?