I don't know about anyone else but sometimes I have trouble sorting out my feelings. Not knowing whether to follow my heart or follow my head. Lord knows they've both let me down on numerous occasions. My head will scream one thing and then my heart will fight back and scream another. When do you really know when enough is enough? When do you stop giving chances? Since I started writing my book I've had so many thoughts and memories come pouring out of me reluctant to stop. Things I have tucked away purposely so I can protect myself from feeling that way again. But now I'm revisited by all these crazy things I did and regretting almost 90% of them. The sad part is I lied. I lied to myself by thinking that I didn't need anyone else by my side when I opened pandora's box. But the truth is I did. And I still do. I need a shoulder. I need someone who won't judge me and still loves me after I put it all out there. Who can love Aprel? For all that I am and the many things, I'm not.