Do you ever feel yourself falling? Wondering how one situation could cause a domino effect and unleash everything you fought so hard to keep at bay? It happens to the best of us whether we wanna admit it or not. Even the best of us crumble, but the majority of people know what to do to brush it off their shoulders and never look back. Others cradle their sorrows and wallow in our own self-pity. I myself have been on both sides. Able to tell people to fuck off if they put me in a mood and also the one rocking and crying in the corner. Right now I'm the one who cries at the drop of a hat and hates what she's allowed. The one who's disappointed in herself for getting back to where she swore she'd never go back to. Knowing how and why it happened but feeling powerless to stop it. Nobody is perfect I know and we all make mistakes. But I guess you have no one to blame but yourself when you allow the mistakes to happen over and over again. I have no one to blame but me. I was given the warnings time and time again but I didn't listen. Had fucked up situations hit me smack dab in the middle of my face and I just brushed them away. My heart constantly overpowers what my brain tells me to do. The part that is logical and realistic. My heart feels so bad and it overpowers every other feeling and emotion that I have. And before I know it with the help of my heart I've been brainwashed into not listening to that logical thinking anymore. It's a step that I realize it though. So maybe with a little bit of help, I can heal and not feel this way anymore.