Tough love is never easy. It doesn't matter who you give it to it hurts till the very end. At that time you are the only one who can actually feel any love because the one getting the love only feels abandonment. For months I have been silently watching someone I hold so very dear self destruct through my laptop. Always being there when she called like she was for me so many moons ago. There was a time in my life when I idolized her and was jealous of everything that she was. She was someone that could light up a room just by her presence and leave her mark where ever she went. Everything growing up that I wanted to be.