I was pissed at myself. I was pissed at myself because I knew that I wasn't 100%. I had communicated with spirit with no problem so many times before. But now, I was fifty shades of fucked up and my consciousness knew it. I was spiritually blocked, which means that because of all the stress and bullshit that had been going on in my life my third eye wasn't on point. Yes, I still saw them but hearing them could be a challenge at times. I was able to find a spirit box though on my phone and that worked for the most part. But definitely not as good as the real thing. It helped though that I didn't lose the ability to feel what they felt because that was so very important and boy did emotion radiate from Eli. In two seconds I had gone from feeling like my bitchy ass self to having an overwhelming sense of sorrow. It was so much that I could feel my eyes filling up with tears and a knot forming in my throat.