Tonight I have a lot on my mind. I'm thinking about him, thinking about my boys and wondering if my future is gonna turn out how it's intended to be, the way God planned for it to be or will I choose to walk the path to the left. It'll still be a path towards God because I'll never leave his side, it would be the path I was meant to take it would be plan A. Then it hit me that I've always taken plan B because it was safer and without risk. I couldn't for the life of me figure out why I've always taken the back road to happiness, always settling for second best and even being one myself. I was comfortable standing in the background because I was embarrassed by who I had come to be.