Wednesday, January 01, 2020

THINK OF ME

   So...I feel like I have to share this so the ones that didn't know Nora Anne would understand just what kind of person she was. So the one night we were talking and she brought up my social anxiety asking me how I feel when I have an attack. I told her that I feel like someone is laying on my chest and I panic because I can't breathe and it's like the walls are closing in on me. At this time I hadn't been out of my house except for 1 time in 3 months. She yelled at me for it telling me it wasn't healthy and I'd better listen to her and go somewhere. I just laughed and a little while later she left. The next day she came back and said that she had been thinking about what I said and how I felt and that she had something that she knew would help me. She reached into her bookbag and pulled this out for me. Then she proceeded to say, "Momma, I want you to have this. I've been carrying it around for as long as I remember and I wanna give this to you. I want you to get your happy ass out of this house and take it with you. If u ever feel your chest caving in and the walls closing in on you I want u to hold this and think of me. Know that at that moment when u are feeling that way that I'm right there beside you. I'll always have your back and I'll always be there for you no matter what."
   Now, this thing has been hanging on my lamp since she gave it to me. I haven't used it yet but I know that all I have to do is call out her name and there she'll be. Having my back and holding me up when those walls are caving in, just like she promised. Oh, and the other picture is one of her doodles that I found the other day. ❤❤❤


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