BEAR

     Well Papa Bear I met your Bear tonight, he is just as great of a person as you said he was. I told him how much you loved him and how special he was to you. And whether u doubted it or not that man loved and adored u too. And I finally met one of your boys and told him the same. Do u know how hard it was to see you tonight? To have to say goodbye  to my best friend for the last time? Damn you, girl, why? Why did u have to leave me and everyone else that loved you? It's not fair and it doesn't make sense but as god as my witness, I will find out the truth. No matter how long it takes. Damnnit girl, I miss you. I love u papa bear. God bless you. This isn't over. I need my closure and I know what I need to do to get it. Oh and one more thing, I wrote about you in my blog, even though u were supposed to do it yourself. And I'm gonna continue to prep for the charity event, even though you are not here to help me like you wanted. And like my book it'll be dedicated to u so u will still be apart of it, even in death. I love you.